TOO AUTHENTIC: 25 Years of Not Fitting In

 

TOO AUTHENTIC: 25 Years of Not Fitting In

This memoir follows 25 years of dancing in spaces that wanted me smaller—and my refusal to shrink.

What's inside:

Chapter 1: Go-Go Dancing - Stories from village discos and city clubs where creativity was treated like rebellion. From the DJ who couldn't handle a woman who initiated, to the boss who wanted decoration instead of artistry, to discovering that "too sexual" really meant "too free."

Chapter 2: Belly Dance - Stories from the world of traditional belly dance, where innovation was viewed as vandalism. Teachers who needed obedience, schools that rejected fusion, and the realization that authentic expression threatens those who police tradition.

Chapter 3: Walked Away - Five turning points, including Slovenia's Got Talent (where the national TV audience humiliated me for having body hair), confronting a teacher who wanted devotion over sovereignty, and the moment I stopped trying to fit into spaces not designed for authentic people.

Plus: An epilogue about what I was doing till now, and the declaration I wrote in 2011 that predicted everything: "I Don't Wanna Fit In."

Each story is told with honesty, just what actually happened when I kept choosing authenticity over acceptance.

This book is for anyone who's been repeatedly rejected and has started to doubt themselves. Because after the third rejection, that voice in your head starts to whisper: "Maybe they're right. Maybe you are too much, not good enough. Maybe you should tone it down. Why can’t you just be normal? Your body should be hidden. Your sexuality is inappropriate." But you know what? Fuck that! Move on with me!

This is what sovereignty looks like in practice: seeing clearly, choosing yourself, and leaving spaces that demand you shrink.

Not perfect. Not healed. Just unapologetically authentic.

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Lessons from the Front: A Rookie War Correspondent in Ukraine and Israel

   

Lessons from the Front:

A Rookie War Correspondent in Ukraine and Israel

Robert Sherman was a 25-year-old kid who thought he knew everything about the world. One day, Russia invaded Ukraine, and the young journalist who had spent his time covering local politics found himself smack dab in the middle of the world's biggest geopolitical crisis -- fleeing air raids and getting accused by local authorities of being a Russian spy. A year later, he found himself in the Middle East running from rockets and diving into Hamas tunnels in Gaza. There's no textbook that teaches you that. In the end Robert's whole view of the world changed and he quickly realized its the simple things in life that matter most: family, home, community, and time. I'm attaching an excerpt of the book here too

 

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A Rookie War Correspondent in Ukraine and Israel

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Secretary of the City The Liz White Diaries (2 book series)

 

Secretary of the City

The Liz White Diaries (2 book series)

Book One- Secretary of the City Book Two- Secretary Says

Liz White doesn't hate her job, but she doesn't love it either. Liz, a self-described slacker, is happy being a secretary to the Manhattan billionaire Henry Jones and his entitled, self-absorbed wife Leighton Jones. When Leighton once again pushes boundaries, this time flying off with an old flame on his private plane only to have it crash, Liz becomes a party to the coverup. From Henry to the governor's mansion to the NYC media, it's a game of cat and mouse as the lives they once knew begin to crumble around them. For Liz, that could mean unemployment. For Leighton and Henry, the consequences could lead to a lifetime of embarrassments. "Secretary of the City" is an ambitious, fast-paced, light-hearted look at the very rich and the very famous.

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THE GHOSTLY LEGENDS SOCIETY: THE MYSTERY OF THE LOST DUTCHMAN'S GOLD

   

THE GHOSTLY LEGENDS SOCIETY:

THE MYSTERY OF THE LOST DUTCHMAN'S GOLD

Four friends. One legend. A mystery buried deep in the Arizona desert.

When Ava and her friends—Jamie, Leo, and Maya—form the Ghostly Legends Society, they expect a summer of exploring the rugged Superstition Mountains, chasing ghost stories, and unraveling old desert myths. But what begins as a daring adventure soon turns into something far more dangerous.

Guided by an ancient map and whispers of the fabled Lost Dutchman’s Gold, the friends stumble upon secrets hidden in the mountains—secrets guarded by forces older than the desert itself. Every step deeper into the wilderness tests their courage, their friendship, and their ability to separate fact from legend.

From flash floods to shadowy ruins, from riddles carved in stone to encounters with the inexplicable, Ava and her friends must rely on their wits and each other to survive. But some treasures are meant to stay hidden…

The Ghostly Legends Society and The Mystery of the Lost Dutchman’s Gold blends history, myth, and heart-pounding adventure into a tale that will keep readers turning the pages late into the night. Perfect for fans of thrilling mysteries, desert legends, and stories where ordinary kids face extraordinary discoveries.

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Kader's Quest

Middle school student Kader is on the precipice of the turbulent path to adulthood. Join him on this journey of discovery and healing through dazzling art replete with puzzles, hidden images, symbolism, reflection and silence.

Award-winning artist Nadir Balan brings this deeply human story to life with stunning illustrations that invite readers to feel every emotion alongside Kader as he uncovers his past and searches for belonging. Written by psychiatrist Dr. Yener Balan and psychotherapist Duygu Balan, this graphic novel embraces raw vulnerability and authentic experiences, creating a story that feels real, digestible, and powerfully relatable.

Kader's Quest offers behavioral health specialists an invaluable therapeutic tool that resonates with young adults facing similar struggles with family dynamics, anxiety, friendship, bullies, and major life transitions. The carefully crafted narrative allows readers to process their own complex emotions through Kader's journey, helping them feel seen in their experiences. For professionals working with teens who struggle to articulate their feelings, this graphic novel provides a meaningful conversation starter grounded in evidence-based principles, making it a compelling read and a powerful clinical resource.

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Infinite Banking for Crypto Investors:

The Old-Money Strategy to Borrow, Grow and Protect Your Digital Assets

You've felt it...That sick moment when you realize you need cash and everything you own is locked in an asset you refuse to sell...but you sell anyway, and at the worst possible time. You pay taxes on gains you weren't ready to realize, you watch the market recover without you and you swear you'll never let it happen again....

BUT WILL YOU? Because life doesn't care about your conviction. Tax bills come due, other opportunities come across your desk and emergencies don't wait for bull markets.

The crypto community obsesses over custody and keys but ignores the obvious question: What good is holding if you can't actually hold?

Infinite Banking for Crypto Investors reveals a strategy that's been hiding in plain sight for over a century. A way to access liquidity without selling, without begging banks and without risking liquidation. Your crypto never leaves custody, your exposure never changes and you just stop being forced into decisions you'll regret.

This book shows you how to build a private lending facility using dividend-paying whole life insurance, structured specifically for crypto investors. You fund it over time, borrow against the cash value when you need liquidity, and your crypto never moves from custody.

The strategy is called Infinite Banking. It's been used by wealthy families for generations. Nelson Nash wrote the foundational text decades ago. What nobody has done until now is show crypto holders exactly how to coordinate it with volatile digital assets.

Inside you'll discover:

• Why policy loans don't trigger taxable events and how that changes everything
• The specific policy design that maximizes cash value (most whole life policies won't work)
• How to time premium funding with crypto market cycles
• When to borrow, when to repay, and how to avoid lapse risk
• The custody solutions that let your crypto sit untouched while you access liquidity
• Red flags that signal a bad policy or a bad advisor
• Estate planning strategies that protect your holdings for the next generation

This book is for you if:

• You hold significant crypto you're committed to keeping long-term
• You have stable income to fund premiums for 5+ years
• You're willing to wait 3-5 years before meaningful borrowing capacity builds
• You want liquidity infrastructure that doesn't depend on market conditions

This book is NOT for you if:

• You need cash in the next 12 months
• You're looking for a get-rich-quick approach
• You want maximum returns over maximum control

The first few years are slow. Building real cash value takes patience. But for the right person, this changes how you think about wealth entirely. Your crypto becomes your growth engine. Your policy becomes your stability layer. You stop choosing between conviction and cash flow.

You can actually hold forever. This is how.

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Forbidden Education of The 21th Century Sugar Plantation

From the roots of slave colonialism to the complexities of modern capitalism, discover the dark undercurrents shaping our society.

Forbidden Education of the 21st Century Plantation by Quinton Girtman presents a unique investigation into of the covert forces shaping Western societies. Through a meticulously researched narrative, Girtman explores the origins of modern capitalism, tracing its roots from the early days of slave colonialism to the complex structures of today’s economic and political systems. The book reveals hidden influences behind significant historical events, including the establishment of the Federal Reserve, the Great Depression, and controversial military and political developments. With striking illustrations and rare documents, Girtman uncovers the covert agendas of powerful institutions such as the Vatican, Zionist bankers, and various monarchies, exposing how they have shaped global events and policies.

Expanding on these themes, Forbidden Education of the 21st Century Plantation also examines the role of mass education as a tool of social control and the dark legacy of Operation Paperclip, where Nazi scientists were recruited to advance the U.S. military industrial complex. Girtman does not shy away from discussing the assassination of key figures like Presidents Lincoln and JFK, nor the impact of Malthusian NGOs and their controversial global health and population control initiatives.

Forbidden Education of the 21st Century Plantation is an essential read for those seeking to understand the hidden forces at play in shaping world history and contemporary issues, offering a compelling critique of the establishment's ongoing manipulation and censorship.

Arm yourself with the insights needed to question and redefine the status quo.
Don’t just scratch the surface—Get a copy of Forbidden Education of the 21st Century Plantation and discover the hidden truths that challenge conventional understanding.

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